Jasmine, Piece of My Heart

I've left her,
I no longer see her face, her laughter,
the way she say her prayer,
everything about her..

I no longer can take care of her,
walk her back to her shelter,

I longer can comfort her, protect her,
feel the great massage of her..

Everything that I used to do with her,
no longer can be done together.
I've left her.

I've went through a great, memorable 4 months with someone who has never in my life, been so close to me in such a short period of time.
Young outside, old inside.. Looks can deceive people. It happened to me, to everyone around her. 1 year elder than me, but look much younger than her actual age. Looks can deceive people. Her looks deceives people.
Going crazy about her idol, JOEP, she sometimes make me think that she is les.. But everything she does for this idol, impresses me.
Being laud outside, quiet inside, she keeps things to herself. She does that most of the times.. Jasmine is whom I'm dedicating this post to.

From someone whom I didn't know until we celebrated our success in our performance, Jasmine became piece of my heart. You might not believe that, 'cause it also took me some time to realise that. From normal friends, we (Jasmine, Keng Leong and I) have became close friends whom we call ourselves 'Zhi Mui' Sounds 'GAY' to Keng Leong and I, but what to do, she is the only girl. We can't say 'xiong di'.... makes her a tomboy. haha.. Well.. at first I wasn't that close to her even though we have became zhi mui. But I still remember when we cycled late at night to Jennifer's house together which is so darn far to celebrate Jennifer's birthday. It was my idea though ><>< Ever since then, I've started to get to know Jasmine more. 3 of us were becoming more like zhi mui(s).

Soon, Keng Leong found himself a girlfriend, didn't even tell both Jasmine and I. Can't blame him, he is in engineering degree, the time with us was not enough for us to be together for too long. But in Keng Leong's heart he still care for us. Since then, only left Jasmine and me.

Liquor brings us together. I remember the first time when 3 of us drink together, we messed things up. I started it 1st by throwing out in Keng Leong's room. lol.. Paiseh.. Later, Jasmine's turn. hahaha.. Ever since that day, liquor has brought us together when we are sad. We started telling each other problems. This practise was then done by only Jasmine and me. Keng Leong was very busy. We drove out to town and have our drinks in a pub. The last time was we bought a cheap liquor and drink in the house. All these happenings were kind of dislike by someone.. haha.. But it didn't affect us. During study week and exam week, I've been with Jasmine everyday, maybe 'cause I got the feeling that I was going to leave her soon so I spent any time I could have with her. I'm glad I did that.

Personally, I feel that the relation between Jasmine and I, Erm.. unique. haha.. Seriously I don't know how to put it in words. I'm easily influenced by her. lol.. Really don't know how to say. hahaha.. During her birthday, all of us gave her a surprise. That time I really squeezed my brain juice to think of one. I did, but something went wrong. Nevermind though.. its over.. As long as she felt the love of everyone and the day come out to be special to her, the rest doesn't matter at all. That night, something surprising and special happened. lol.. She exchanged a "present" with me. So does Keng Leong. That night was not only special to her, but for me too.

Ever since I left Miri, I've been thinking about the day I finally get the chance to meet her. I've been dreaming and dreaming.. and if that really happened, I'd hug her tight.

Things might change in future, but there are things that will never change and be forgotten, the one who is always in my heart, Jasmine.. and the love..^^