Blogging=Assignment ><

wow..I didn't post anything here for so many days. What to do, I was given an assignment in creating, designing, writting a blog. Zzz.. I know it is funny to be given that as an assignment. Well.. I guess my post would be mostly posted there. If not I have to copy what I wrote there and paste it here, which I think it's quite silly. lol.. By the way, the way I write my blog there is different from writting one here. 'cos I can't use broken English and no short forms or whatsoever. And the post must be meaningful. No "Today I woke up and went to toilet. Brush teeth..."bla bla bla. Must be MEANINGFUL. Sien..

The lecturer would visit the blog once a week and comment on it. If not comment means :"You post sux." lol.. I think. haha..

I am sad to know that the SOMEONE come to visit my blog for the first time. SAD.. I will make sure she get something GOOD from me when she come to KL on July. Hahahahaha...

This Is Our Country. Believe it..

On Friday, last 2 days, my classmates, Tee Siang, Hon Wai and I went to Subang together by car. Tee Siang was the driver while I was the director as I know the way better. He was driving carefully all along. There were many lorries and as a result most of the light vehicles were on the right lane, so were we. After we past one of the traffic lights, there was road block. Some of the cars in front of us were being asked to pull over while we were let go until we came to the last officer which is in Sarjan rank. We were accused of bypassing vehicles using left lane. We were so confused as he kept saying "You potong lane". Potong lane dengan gunting a? Sial.. We were on the right lane all the time, how could we be bypassing vehicles using left lane? We only moved to the left lane when we thought one of the officers asked us to go to that lane. 4 out of 5 officers let us go. But the last asked us the pull over. Does it mean that the other 4 are blind that they didn't see us bypassing vehicles by left lane or what.

He took the driving license and start recording what he has to record. We waited for more than 15 minutes as we tried to be sure of what we have prosecuted. While he was doing the explanation which none of them are useful, he directed another car to pull over. A Honda City was pulled over and was allowed to go in less than 10 seconds. Do you think recording driver and car details only take few seconds? I didn't even see the Honda driver taking out his license. You know what it means. Maybe the driver had extra coffee and he gave the officer one. Or maybe the officer ordered a cup of coffee from the driver. The driver came to deliver only. Well, this happens all the time. The officers are working hard under the hot sun. We should treat them some coffee as an appreciation for their hardwork. They deserve it.

We were simply accused of commiting a fault that we ourselves don't even know. He told us that if we don't admit that we are wrong, it is ok, don't pay for the penalty. There was a section where the driver has to sign as a declaration that he has prosecuted the fault. He strongly opposed to sign, which is a right thing to do. He didn't do anything wrong, he don't have to sign. Without any further conversation. We were allowed to leave. I think there is something wrong with the sarjan's eyes. Or he was just very thirsty. If thats the case, sorry, we couldn't help.

Another story of our 'respective' law enforcement officer happened on the same day.

At night, I went to KL for dinner. KL that time was very very jam as a result of in-operatable traffic lights. 2 traffic police officers, with their Honda motorcycle parked in the middle of the road, was directing the traffic. Most of the times, the presence of these officers means worse condition. The condition would'nt be as worse as after they showed up. You will get what I mean after I tell you the whole story.

Vehicles from other lanes were directed to move until the road became loose, while only 4 to 6 cars from our lane are directed to move. See? Out of 4 lanes, more than half the number of vehicles from the other 3 lanes were directed to move. Only 4 to 6 vehicles from our lane were allowed to move. They have been doing this the whole night. No wonder it was so jammed.

The most interesting part is. Both of them ran away in the middle of their operation. Leaving the screwed up condition of the road behind. Traffic lights weren't back to normal at all and they left. After they flee away, car started to move on their own. Traffic started to flow smoothly like it is supposed to.

From this incident, I can say that our law inforcement buddies are so 'responsible'. They messed things up and they leave. So what are they hired for? To mess things up? We pay them for that? They use our money to buy a Honda motorcycle for them to look cool? Balik kampung tidur la. Don't come out kacau only.

This is how our country is being run. This is how our country grows. Slowly and steadily, right? Malaysia Boleh.. Memang Boleh

You might not believe what I'm going to tell you here. But everything is true, though I didn't see it with my own eyes or even feel it myself.

On Tuesday, when I was going back to my hostel, I saw some fragmented concrete along the road. I thought it was caused by some maniac drivers who accidentally hit the roadside, so I didn't pay much attention to it. As I met my classmates, the told me that on past Sunday, a lightning actually struck the roof top of Block F, the place where the fragments were. When I was on my way back to hostel after class, I looked up the the roof of Block F. What I saw was a huge, how to say, a hole, at the roof. Zzz.. Anyway, the fragments droppped and damage the shed below it. Luckily no one was hurt that time.

This is not as interesting as the one I'm going to tell next. Eartquake in Nilai. Shocking.. Yup, you get me right. A minor quake was felt by students on Monday. It was a 5 seconds quake. Everyone went out of their room to see what was going on. Some thought it was some asshole bombing the songs. More hilariously, one of my friends thought it was some effect from the movie he was watching.

Haiz.. I would say it was unfortunate that I wasn't there to witness and experience these two incidents. What a waste. It might sound crazy or stupid, but I really wish I have a chance to experience either one. I don't mind going Indonesia or China, IF I could. Haha..

For A Better World. Lets 'work' together..

People around the world is trying to aid Myanmar and China, countries which were greeted by undefeatable mother nature on 2 and 12 May. Is this the sign that 'the end of the day' is approaching? Last night after watching anime "Gundam Seed", an anime about humanity and war, something came into my mind.

People started war; people started helping; people started hurting mother nature and at the same time healing mother nature. Ironic?? What are we trying to achieve? Balance? When we lose we gain? If old doesn't go new doesn't come? Does this apply to the world we are living in? If it is about bringing the world to a peaceful and healthy environment, why are people fighting for power in order to accomplish that very task? Does what we are is going to affect what we are doing for the sake of a better world? We people talk about saving the world by recycling bla bla bla, but on the other side we are doing the different thing. Wars going on, protest going on...... Do all these save the world? When something unfortunate happened to people around us, only then we will start to realise what is the right thing we should do or perhaps that we should have appreciated it more. Do we have to wait until the 'end of the day' is infront of our very own eyes then only we try to do something about it or cry at the corner and regret?

Many incidents have occured yet people still don't care. Tsunami, Cyclone Nargis, impossible earthquake that happened to unexpected places, all these aren't enough to wake people whom they the say have the "sharp and intelligent brain"?

We always say that we want to create a better environment for our next generation, but we are doing the opposite thing. Things are getting worse as we live. Babies or even infants died in recent nature disaster. How long do you think they actually have seen the world or even enjoyed it? They probably wouldn't want to have lived in a world which is full of anger. Everyday, we are afraid of being robbed, assasinated...... We live in fear. Do we actually prefer the world to be like this?

Movies like Resident Evil, The Day After Tomorrow, etc, have been a warning to us people. Yet, have we taken it in? I don't think so. We are too 'busy' to take it in. We rather protest against the country which is going to host Olympic Games or even quarrel among the parliaments. Go ahead and try to make the country strong and wealthy. Enlarge your territory, take time to vote for a 'better' and 'reliable' leader. When 'the end of the day' comes, you can survive longer. Even for a few days will do you the favour. Or maybe you are waiting for the day to come so that you can show your people what are you capable of until you can change the world and show the people that they have made the right choice voting you. What a GOOD strategy.

Shocking~~

Wow.. Surprisingly or "shockingly" , this 5days in campus I didn't go to CC to play dota. lol.. I had a chat with my ex gf through msn just now. She seldom only. Worse than me. Whole conversation went well, we still are able to chat like we used to. Tease each other, talk lots of stuff...... Glad we are still able to chat like that. "Shocking~~" Anyway, there are 1 project and 1 assignment that I have to work on. Though the earliest due date is 1month old, still, have to work on it now. Take more time so that can produce better work. "Shocking~~" First time hearing me working hard? "Shocking~~". Monday holiday lo.. Sien.. 1 more day at home. SIEN!!! Worse, with my laptop going crazy like that. Haiz.. Old friend, hang on please.. I think its better I say it to China. Hang on China.. Friends in Miri too.. Don't get blown away by typhoon.. Jas.. don't cycle at night and got blown away together with my bicycle. lol.. Movie time.. Night..

New Sem = Stress..

First week of new sem has just ended. Math lecturer just finish teaching us first chapter within 4 hours of lectures. The other 3 subjects will start next week. This is will be more stressful compared to last sem, more work to do. I wouldn't be like last sem, playing around and still can score. This sem, miss 1 class, means miss 1 chapter ><. haiz.. All of us started to worry. Everyone started to work hard. We went to library together to borrow text books and reference books to study. In 2 hours class, we usually ask for break to have some snacks or relax, but this time, we asked for break to do more exercises. All our lecturer were surprised that this batch of students are so hard working. There was one who thought that we wouldn't come for the first class as it was the 'tradition' of the uni, but we all came. She was surprised. This sem there will be a lot of competitors. I have to work harder to stay in place. Haiz.. It the first week itself, we were given assignments already. Although the due date is still few weeks or months ahead, but I think some of us have started working on it. I myself too will be starting one of the assignments soon. Stressfull.. All our lecturers are female. One of them is very very young, 3 years older than me. ><. Out of 4 lecturers, 3 have high requirements. Obviously we will have a hard time. Few of us are already being stressed up by the lectures. Hope all of us will not collapse and score in the end. Gambateh!

Here comes METEOR!!! New Begining!!

TODAY 5am only sleep, woke up at 11 sth am. lol.. After breakfast then ready to go KLCC. Was out whole day. Cut hair and others. Then went 1U to find something, bought computer accessories and had dinner there. I wasn't in a good mood the whole day until I went home and saw someone online. JAS!! lol.. She online once in a blue moon as the line at her hostel sux to the max. In addition, I was shouting for her in my last post. lol.. Her presence just make me so freaking happy. lol.. Only get to chat with her online. Zzz.. Its like waiting for a meteor to fly over and make a wish. lol.. What description is that. lol.. Anyway, tomorrow new sem start le. Yeah!! Can't wait to return to my uni life. Better than staying at home. Zzz.. haha.. New beginning, new subjects, new challenge, new hopes, new target. lol..

HATE LECTURES!! WHERE IS MY LIFE??!! GIVE ME MY LIFE!!

Very bad mood. My laptop started to have problems. Many times it just hang there and never move again. Doesn't recognise devices I plug in most of the time. Shit head.. In addition, I just finished being lectured by THE GUY in my house. F*** it.. Even small matter like mistaken how a flyer was distributed into my hostel room, I was lectured for that BIG matter. WTH man.. Is it very important how it was distributed. What difference could it make? Make things worse? It doesn't even give a shit effect on any matter. And I get it from him. F*** it.. After lectures comes compliment. Bring me down up at the same time?? I don't give a shit of what kind of compliment was it about. I don't care how great it was given. I don't give a damn. F*** it. Pisses me off whenever he lectures. Just pisses me off. Just wish I could quickly have my own life. No matter what it takes, I want my god damn own life. Sorry for being rude but, this is the only place I can release my anger.

JAS!! WHERE ARE YOU??!!

Full full full..

Today went out whole day to do some matters. Sien.. The only fun part was having dinner. lol.. Had dinner in Midvalley's Madam Kwan. Ate 2 and a half bowls of rice, 2 drumsticks, some vege, and a rendang beef and ABC as dessert. lol.. Full.. The drumsticks are so big and nice. hahaha.. Now I'm so freaking tired. Drove whole day to KL and around KL. Zzz.. Next Monday start class le. Yeah!! Can't wait!!

MERIT AWARD!! More hope, More disappointment >< Ironic..

Wow.. Today went to take my result and enrolled for next semester. MERIT AWARD!!! YEAH!! Erm.. but I err..was aiming for Excellence award, and the results were not as I aimed. So bit disappointed. But still good la. Most of my friends did well also. Hmm.. Next sem must study harder. Get E!! E for Excellence!! Wow.. What a joke. Those who know me during school times sure wonder. lol.. Kenny changed. lol.. Hope it is not just for temporary. lol.. kai wan siao.. Anyway.. Congrat to all my classmates!! See you guys next week!! Next sem we stride together again!! kai wan siao.. ^^v

Lossssssstt

Last night I couldn't sleep. Zzz.. These few days keep thinking about the past. Zzz.. so good if can rewind everything. Haiz.. Why we have to lose something then only will regret leh.. Sien diao.. Feel so lost. Lossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssttttt.. Wonder how is David and Amanda now. Just hope they are alright. Curtin having free week and sports carnival. Wished I could be there. Gambateh guys!!

Boring Holiday!!

Haiz.. Still got more than 1 week to go before new sem starts. Weirdly, I've been longing for that day. Whole day at home has been driving me crazy. Bored.. My routine is sleep, eat, 'chit chat' with my laptop. Sleep in time, eat in time, 'chit chat' in time. Thats all.. I wished I could go out and work or become a chauffeur also no problem. As long as it keeps me out of the house. Zzzz.. Wonder how my friends are doing. Haiz.. Sien.. Some having mid-term, some busy with assignments, some being working. Zzz.. SIEN!!

Finals Gone!! God Bless Our Dearest David & Amanda!

It's been more than a week I didn't post. Was having my finals from Monday till Wednesday, 4 papers. Had fun with my classmates on Wednesday night till midnight, home on Thursday. During the exam, I realised some important things.

1. Don't be too relax especially when we are dealing with something important, for my case was finals. I took some papers lightly. I thought Math paper was as easy as I think. But I was wrong. The paper was harder. Able to answer, but might not score very well. That was my immature mistake.

2. Study whatever is taught. I studied the hard part only for programming paper. The paper came out much easier. Same thing, able to answer, but might not score very well.

3. I've changed. I was lazy and just aim for 'Pass' in exams. This time, I wasn't worry about failing. Instead, I worry about not getring A's. What the crap.

On Wednesday, I had my last paper. Few of us including me finished the 2-hour paper in about half an hour. Some left some didn't. We waited for a few friends to finish and we left the exam class earlier. Before this we planned our having fun. Swimming, watching movie, playing basketball, the list goes on, until next morning. But, most of us studied whole night till exam time. We did't sleep. haha.. the plan changed. Our plan is, sleep. At night only we order pizza. lol.. After that we do our own stuff. Some went CC, me of course and some others, the rest do their own things. Lol.. Seriously not as fun as we call for it. lol.. But its ok, we can replace it during next sem. lol..

Today, one of my friends, Tee Siang, sms-ed me. He told me one of the results. I scored A for my programming paper, the paper I worried the most. WAKAO!! Now I'm super relieved. lol.. Hope I can score higher marks for the other paper. Want to get CERT!! haha.. Excellence Cert. lol.. Next sem I must gambateh more!!

Yesterday I called David. A brother of a Miri church. He was diagnosed with liver illness. Liver transplant is the only solution. On Friday, there are 17 people tested and waiting for result to see who is suitable to transplant the liver. Hope David will be fine soon. The voice I heard on Friday is different from the voice I usually hear. A weak voice. But he told me not to worry as he is strong. Haiz.. Get well soon David. God bless you.. If anyone who read this thinks that he might be able to help, please contact me or David : 012-8787830.

And Amanda, you too.. Success in your Monday surgery ya!! God bless you too!! BAKA MANDA!!

Candace's Order : 被扎到够够力 VERSION

Just called Jasmine and Candace. Glad to hear that Jasmine is doing fine. I get to talk with Kachong as well as Jasmine passed the phone to her. Hahaha.. Still has the cute voice. When I called Candace, she was surprise. Haha.. because honestly, I long time didn't call her already. I asked about her condition with Jerry. She said they go in seperate ways already. I was so shocked and sad, honestly. I keep asking Candace:"有没有搞错哦!!" Then I asked what happened. Zzz.. Then I think better don't talk about sad things le. So we changed topic. We chat and laugh and chat and laugh like we usually do. Lol.. We talked about a lot of things, a lot a lot.. Suddenly I heard Jerry's voice, then I said :" ok la, you two still friends. At least it is not so bad."

This is the interesting part: ( THIS EXPLAINS THE HIDDEN MEANING I MENTIONED)
She replied:" You really believed a? hahaha.." SWT!! 被扎到够够力.. She told me they are doing fine. This Candace.. Very good.. My BEST FRIEND.. I was so freaking worried about her but she was joking with me all the while. 被扎到够够力.. But, in the meantime of 被扎到够够力, I'm still glad that they are doing fine. At least things are going fine between them. This Candace.. BEST!! Some more asked me write two versions of blog. One is I assumed what she said is true, I'm sad and blah blah blah.. I called it 没被扎到够够力 version, which is the post before this. The other version is this lo. 被扎到够够力 version.. ><>< Very GOOD!! THANK YOU CANDACE!! YOU'RE THE BEST!! I know she sure say :" 现在才懂么." Haiz.. Anyway, I'm glad that everything over there is fine. Good Luck & Take Care My Friends in Miri, especially to those who are having basketball competition.

Candace's Order : 没被扎到够够力 VERSION

Just called Jasmine and Candace. Glad to hear that Jasmine is doing fine. I get to talk with Kachong as well as Jasmine passed the phone to her. Hahaha.. Still has the cute voice. When I called Candace, she was surprise. Haha.. because honestly, I long time didn't call her already. I asked about her condition with Jerry. She said they go in seperate ways already. I was so shocked and sad, honestly. I keep asking Candace:"有没有搞错哦!!" Then I asked what happened. Zzz.. Then I think better don't talk about sad things le. So we changed topic. We chat and laugh and chat and laugh like we usually do. Lol.. We talked about a lot of things, a lot a lot.. Suddenly I heard Jerry's voice, then I said :" ok la, you two still friends. At least it is not so bad."

Don't so sad la ya Candace.. Can't be couple be friends lo ya.. Still got many guys out there. You so "NICE", sure can get another one very soon (HIDDEN MEANING, FIND OUT WHY IN MY NEXT POST) Good Luck & Take Care My Friends in Miri, especially to those who are having basketball competition.

Got Tricked@@!! Nice Work Done Kit YIng!!

Today I reached my secondary school before 11am for gathering. All of them were still training in the school hall. I went in. There were so many new faces and the number of members increased compared to the previous year. Good job done. But the situation was a bit messy as they lack of leader. The instructor wasn't there. Haiz.. as always. My students were happy to see me, so do I. Some have changed, some didn't. It wasn't good to talk while training so I waited for them. Traditionally, before the class ends, juniors have to bow to the seniors according to rank. For example, First, black belt stand forward and receive bow from their juniors which is the rank below them. Then, 2nd poom come forward and reveive bow from the lower rank... and it goes on until white belt. I was asked to receive bow from all of them including the blacks but I wasn't wearing a uniform and I didn't have a reason to receive it at all. So I rejected the request even though the president has asked me several times. haha.. So nice of her. Kit Ying stepped into the hall and screamed><. Of course the first thing she say is long time no see. lol.. She played wif my hair like I'm a little child till my hair is all messed up><. Then I saw another student of mine, Kai Siang. haha.. We started chatting while waiting for them to get ready. I was told that my seniors would come so I asked about their whereabout. They left for work already ><><. Anyway, I got another surprise. Kit Ying lied to me and others whom she invited. We all thought it was a once-a-year gathering where there are food and drinks and everyone sit down eat together and play games like that. In another word, a formal one. This kind of gathering is specially to call back old seniors to gather and blah blah blah. Of course if we seniors don't attend it would be a disappointment for those who prepared. So we attended like it was a formal one. Who knows they tricked us. Swt.. But it shows how much they care about us. Sweet in a way they cared about us, wicked in a way they tricked us to make us show ourselves. lol.. No matter what, it is good intention. I really had fun and was happy to see them. Few of them wanted to hug us but we were shy. lol.. Especially when my student, the president, Khai Ling, who is a female wanted to hug me. She knew I was shy so she gave me a high-five. lol.. All of them laughed at me and say I'm still the same. Just a bit taller and maybe not as thin as before. lol!! The rest like, the way I laugh and the way I look at people, as in my 'yam yong', still the same old me. Whenever they see me laughing they would laugh more than I do, bacause of the way I laugh. Kit Ying said:"Why you still so cute one!" ><.. I don't know it is bad or good for me. lol.. Suddenly I met Wai Kiat, my old classmate. He too say I still look the same. Ask why my face didn't grow old. ><.. Aiyo.. After we ready, we walked to A&W. All the while we have been chatting about our life and so on so on.. There were surprises heard and some good and bad news. Over all, good is more than bad. haha.. Yeah, its good to meet them and hear from them. While we were in A&W, we talked so laud and talked about NS as few of them went. And again, when I laugh, they laugh till stomach ache. That Kit Ying laugh and hit me at the same time><><.. Some more she only hit the same part. Zzz.. Anyway, I really enjoyed the day except the whacking part from Kit Ying ><.. hahahaha.. See you guys soon, my dear students.

Bad Day+Suprise!!

Today I had a bad stomachache. Maybe is because of the cup noodle that I ate for supper last night. Zzz.. Pain till I woke up. It lasted whole day. It was getting better at night. When I was in the middle of doing my stuff, Kit Ying-my old taekwondo student, sms-ed me. She ask me to go for a gathering tomorrow. The next sms was a begging one, telling me how hard the juniors have prepared for the gathering and hope I don't disappoint them. Haiz.. after getting this sms, it was hard for me to reject. So I asked the permission from my father. Super suprisingly, he agreed @@. WOW!!! I was super happy. haha.. Long time never see my students and juniors le. Too bad my buddy Kai Chuan and Pei Ying couldn't make it tomorrow. sien.. Nevermind la. Hope to see them during the next gathering. ^^ oh ya.. today is one of my classmates birthday. Though I don't really know her, but still "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, SIANG YI (don't know correct or not @@ lol..)

Interesting Outing..

Last night I had my dinner with my classmates for the first time. 5 of us gathered and went to the chinese coffee shop. It was going to rain and we afraid that we couldn't go back if it rains heavily. haha.. Luckily it didn't happened. After dinner we went to CC for the first time. First time again. lol.. We played 2 rounds. More than 2 hours. After that a few went back. Left Chi Heng, Tee Siang and me. CH and I played dota through GG Client. The line was so sux. We couldn't join the same game. The game he joined wouldn't be showed to me. The game I joined wouldn't be showed to him. Clash in the line. My GG friends send me message, both of us could receive. Swt like hell.. Sux la this line!! Zzz.. We tried for about an hour and I gave up. We play our own game. Zzz.. Wasted an hour. Zzz.. Anyway, I was the last to go back. Chi Heng went back at 2am while I went back at 3am. This morning I was so tired and didn't want to go to lab. lol.. The class is extra class so I didn't bother. Out of 30 only 9 turned up. I continue to sleep until 2pm. Went to bath and ready to go out for badminton as my classmates booked the badminton court from 3pm-5pm. Long time didn't exercise already. Zzz.. Didn't touch badminton ever since I went to secondary school. At first I was clumsy, then I started to play like a normal person. lol.. Anyway, these two days really are special. It is the first time we go out together, after knowing each other for few months and it is going to be end of sem. Zzz.. After that, at 6pm, I went out for dinner with my "aiya jie jie", Li Ping. She brought me to a restaurant which is placed in the middle of Desa Palma, an apartment. She recommended me chicken roll and banana juice. Both are very nice. Just that it is quite far away. haha.. These few days, weird enough, all these outings only happen when it is near finals and end of sem. haha.. But its all good..

Happy April Fool Day @@ Get Fooled?

Just back to my room. Zzz.. Tonight that Anthon 'fang mai fei ji' again. Wait till about 10pm only he say he stomach ache don't want to eat. Swt.. Anway, today I have a replacement class for english from 4pm to 6pm. Suppose I only have 1 class which is from 2pm to 4pm. The first class ended about 45 mins earlier. Few of us went for lunch at sidewalk cafe. After that we went to the class where we had our first class. All of us, the guys, sleep on the table and started chatting. Haha.. We played some funky songs through phone. One of us started to fool us as today is April Fool. Zzz.. These few years April Fool is not as fun as the ones during school times. Maybe it is because we have grown up and get enough of cheatting from it already. However, there is one person who successfully cheated her friend, Jasmine. walaowei.. After class, when I was on my way back to my room, suddenly a girl called me. I was very curious as I only know a handful of girls here and none of them has this voice. The voice was from upstairs. I looked up and saw my math teacher Miss Chan. Swt.. I wonder how she saw me from there, as I need to pop out my head a bit only can see her. She ask:"You going back?" I answered yes then say goodbye to each other. lol.. Cute teacher. hahaha.. Ah!! talked bout her, tomorrow got her class and she is giving back the test paper. OMG.. Wish me luck!!

Jas' Sh!n!nG Te3tH "wink wink"

Just came back to my room. Met my hostel neighbour, Robin. lol.. After its near end of sem only we started talkin to each other and know each other's name. lol.. Tonight I got a sms which I have been longing for. Hahaha.. Sms from my zhi mui. She said she brace her teeth lo. Shining now. lol..!! Really want to know how she look which that brace on. lol.. Shining teeth. haha.. Don't know what partern of brace she chose. Diamond-like bracer?? hahaha.. Anyway glad she is doing fine there though her busy period just started. My buys period just ended but final is coming. lol.. I guess no difference. "Polish your bracer a Jas.. Keep it shining. lol!! @@" KI SIAO..!!

Uncertainty & Earth Hour

This morning I had my breakfast with one of my close friends, Jia Yin. We were from the same primary school but only came to know each other during form 3 when she became my vanmate. At first we kind of quarrel sometimes. Course in van, we guys tend to disturb some girls. haha.. But then we became close friends since form 4. Forgot since when, we started to ask each other out for breakfast on Sunday-only on Sunday. That time there were 3 of us, Jia Yin, Yen Tink and I. Yen Tink was just staying very near to my house, just behind. But ever since Yen Tink moved to damansara and it is not convenient for her to travel down here, only left Jia Yin and me. I remember the first time, we 3 went to eat dim sum in our housing area. We were like old folks. Uncle and aunties drinking chinese tea, eating dim sum. We were the youngest in the coffee shop. Zzz.. I still remember Jia Yin accidentally dropped a 'Siu Mai' into her chinese tea. lol.. It was so fun. Old times. Now only left 2.

When I'm home I wrote a post about the uncertainty of friendship that I've been having all this while. It was a shitty post. After talking about it with Amanda, I decided not to post it. I just finished watching the final episode of Gundam 00. The end was so saddening. The anime is mainly about a group of people sacrificed themselves for entire world peace. The 2nd season is coming up next week. Hope it is not as saddening as the 1st season. Oh well, I slept a lot this whole day. lol.. I read about a news just now. Yesterday, people around the world switch off lights anywhere for an hour by the time "Earth Hour" to show concern to global warming. I think it didn't happened here. lol.. Last year it first started in Sydney alone. This year, many countries or states have signed up to participate. Everyone had their candle-light dinner. Imagine whole KL was doing that. Candles everywhere. Pedestrains holding candles.. Beach filled with candles.. In other ways, it is romantic. lol.. what a scene. Hope next year it will happen here. For my friends in Miri, imagine two sides of the road of Villa being lit by candles. lol..I'm sure it will be a nice view. Have a good day tomorrow.

What's Life?

Just finished dinner. lol.. Today I just watch HongKong Drama on Astro On Demand Channel (D.I.E) Funny. hahaha.. After that at about 6pm. I took a nap until around 10pm. Then dinner. Last few weeks when my brother went to dentist as he need to brace his teeth, he took a X-ray. The X-ray film shows that there is a tooth inside the gum which is not grown out. The details I don't really know as it is a complicated one. lol.. Anyway, this happened to my elder sister few years ago but her case was different. It is not just a tooth that is inside her gum, but a lot...of tiny little teeth. She went through operation to take all out. The amount of teeth taken out was about 30 tiny teeth. Horrible. This time my brother went to the specialist who treated my sis for checking and consultation. It was confirmed and he said that this may be hereditary. For this reason, my father made an appointment for me. To check with him if I got the same situation or not. OMG.. Come on.. The dentist whom we went for checking for so many many years always say my teeth is the best among my brother and sister. How can I have the same situation like them? Zzz.. Don't joke with me la. Come on.. I just wouldn't accept IF I really ... Touch wood touch wood. Zzzz.. Fine.. Check ma check lo!! Zzz.. Haiz.. Why life is so.. unpredictable huh.. Though same can be predicted. haiz.. Just finish most of my assignments now come this stupid check up that I have to worry about. Why isn't there a week or a month or a year when I don't have to worry about anything? Zzz.. When I was still a primary school boy, I wonder where is Heaven and Hell. When people explore the space why didn't there see Heaven? When people dig the ground, why didn't there see Hell? Where are these 2 places? I wish to see. Seriously. lol.. It sounds crazy or idiotic, but, seriously I would like to know. I have heard about a story where she(my primary teacher) actually died, really died, and the body was already stored in the morgue. She said that after she died she everything around her is dark until she saw lights from a sort of door or entrance. It is as if the light is asking her to follow it. That was the only way she could walk to. As she walks, a voice suddenly sounded to her ears, asking her not to follow the light, it is a trap. She was nervous and didn't know what to do. So she just stopped. Out of a sudden, a force pulled her away from where she was standing. The next thing she know was that she opened her eyes and saw that she was in a box. In those days, they keep corpse in sort of a drawer thing I don't know what is it called. We usually see it on TV one leh.. lol.. Anyway.. She screamed for help until someone draws the storage out and saw that she was alive. Hmm.. I was shocked that she actually experienced it. lol.. It is not just from her I heard from, from many of my teachers, stories of other people. Strange or miracle things do happen to us. I just wish I could witness every one with my own eyes.. Thats why I like to watch Ripley's Believe It Or Not. lol.. But now I don't see any of his show on TV. Honestly, I do think that some of those are fake or made up. lol.. Some only.. lol.. Well.. Life.. Can say its unique, challenging, adventurous.. Can say its complicated, troublesome, unpredictable.. You list it.

Assignments Mostly Cleared!! But Final Coming><

At last I've finished most of my assignments and all presentations. Today I had my last presentation. The first was easy but today's presention was a bit hard. I was so nervous-but compared to most of the time when I will shiver like I'm in the North Pole during presentation, this time I didn't shiver. The lecturer limited our slides to 7-10. But my group's slide has 26 ><. Exceeded almost 3 times of limited slides. We were asked to cut short our presentation as there was not enough time. The class was actually from 8am-9am. The first two presentation has already taken up much time. The second presentation ended at 9.10am. Suppose we have another class at 9am but the lecturer was on MC so we get to carry on until 10am. My group was the third. >< So wished we didn' have our leturer on MC so that we could present next week and in the meantime reduce our slides. We didn't have much time to reduce before the presentation. Our research and information and the things to talk about is too much. Our topic is Computer Privacy, Crime and Security. It is like 3 topic in 1. How possible could we make all these 3 into 1? and the time for us to talk is like 5-10 mins. Time is not a matter, but slides. Omg.. Unless we put each topic 2 slides. How possible? And the words cant be too small. Need at least the size of 24. Omg.. When the lecturer ask me to hurry up, I just burst out whatever I know accordingly without depending on the slides for information. Just for the header and body I just burst out. Zzzz.. The presentation didn't turn out to be what I expected. Haiz.. After class, one of my classmates which her another occupation is also a LECTURER, told me that I was knowledgable. I just replied with a silly smile:" I was very nervous." She said there is nothing to be nervous of. Come on.. Your a lecturer man.. Some more I don't know half of the class as our class combined with business students. zzz.. Then I went to join my classmates, coursemates, for lunch. From far I could see all of them laughing at me. Why.. The answer is so shocking and OMG. All of them shouted in front of SO FREAKING LOT PEOPLE :" KENNY!! YOU ARE SO CUTE!!" We were at the sort of sidewalk cafe and it is break time for most students. They shouted that out in those kinda place. OMG.. During the presentation, before my turn, I was nervous till I keep smiling and laughing like a jerk.. When I'm presenting I also did that. But slowly after things started to heat up and I started to talk smoothly, I stopped laughing. Haiz.. Well.. Though it was not what I expected, but I could see that I've improved a bit. No more shivering. haha..The lecturer didn't comment whether it is good or bad. I think should be average ba? Hope so hope so.. Aiks.. with assignments mostly done, about 2 more weeks then FINALS!!

Math Test~

Yesterday I had my math test. Wow.. It was not as hard as I thought. haha.. hard questions weren't set in the paper. thank God. I think and hope I can get full score man.. The lecturer is very good. When I wanted to hand in my papers, she look through it. Everything is ok. but the last question, I used a different matter to solve it, she was wondering it that was correct or not. After awhile she say it should be correct. But I didn't want to risk so I took back the paper and follow the same old format. hahahaha.. She is very kind and friendly to us.. Nice lecturer. haha.. Pretty and kinda young too. hahaha.. Well.. Gtg sleep..

Ironic >< & Sorry Anthon!!

Last night I crazy again. Dota till around 4am. zzz.. On Monday.. Suppose there is an assignment due. I still left a bit. Before class I rush rush rush to complete it. 40pages, about 8k of words. Cool? hahaha.. At the end I was late for an hour. I wasn't afraid that the lecturer would scold as she is very kind. haha.. Once I knocked the door and enter, she say :"eh come here and take your test paper. You have the highest score." I was so shocked and thought she was being sarcastic as her emotion was good. I thought she meant I was the worst. Being stone for few seconds, I didn't even take the test paper from her. I stared at the paper. lol.. She then contined:"though you have the highest score, but it is not good." Then only i know why. Out of about 32 students, only 6 passed. Zzzz... I was very happy though the result is not that good. The sentence"you got the highest score" at least make me feel happy. lol.. paiseh to say that. hahaha.. After the discussion, a girl went out and say the lecturer added her marks wrongly. OMG!! She has the highest score now. I'm second. What the dut.. lol.. I lose to her 5 marks. Kanasai.. What a joke.. Nevermind, I will win her in final!! Hmph!! Tomorrow math test again. I'm gonna get full score!! 'Cos during last test i did really stupid mistake.. Minus I put add.. Self confidence too high that time. Zzz.. Wish me luck!! And hope I don't make stupid stupid mistakes again. Zzz.. today jasmine went to dentist. Don't know how is she.. Worries.. Miss.. woowoo.. hahahaha.. Oh ya.. Just now,which is about half an hour ago, when I was going to have dinner with my friend Anthonius. I told him there will be a test tomorrow. I shouldn't have said that as he kept it from his girlfriend as to not worry her. My bad mouth..zzz.. then they end up quarrelling. Omg.. Both of them are indonesion, so I don't 100% understand what are they saying, but he told me that it is not about the exam, and asked me not to worry about it, its not my fault. haiz.. but i was the one who made this happened.. If I hadn't told you about it.. Sorry Anthon..!! Haiz.. But I think both of them are ok cos his gf sms-ed me and say not to worry about it. Phew.. Hope both of them really ok ler.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS CHAN

Today my first class is math as usual. Everything was as usual until before we were dismissed, the lecturer asked us to stay back for class photos. We were wondering why. Our last class is next week. How come suddenyl she want to take pictures with us? We kept questioning her. But she say she just want to take pictures with us. Hmm.. Anyway we just follow what she said. We took the first picture and we switch the cameraman. Suddenly miss shouted:"(she only know my actual name instead of 'Kenny') wai leong, make sure I can see your face a!" ><><" She just say :" I cant call your name isit." Swt.. I'm speechless.. One of my friends said, she sayang me. I was hmm... Good hor.. Lecturer sayang me. hahaha.. Anyway, main point, after the class photos, she finally told us why. It her BIRTHDAY!! omg.. She finally stepped into 30s. lol.. We all wished her happy birthday and sang the song.. When it came to "happy birthday to (name)", many of urs didn't know how to continue. lol.. Only the retake-student know. Paiseh.. Miss Chan.. haha.. HAPPT BIRTHDAY MISS CHAN.

Happy Easter Day!!

Ah.. Just finished reading Naruto manga. Waiting for the next episode. haha.. "Last night" I had my hair cut. Zzz.. Parents wanted me to change my hairstyle. They say it looks like a bunch of grass. Zzz.. It is only because I lazy to style my hair la. Zzz.. Father asked bos of the saloon we always go for hair cut to see what kind of hairstyle suits me. Zzzz.. What other hairstyle could have suited me? Zzz.. with the quality or kind of my hair, I only can have short hairstyle. Zzz.. Anyway, the so called new hairstyle is just the normal hairstyle I use to have, just that this time is shorter. My stylist purposely wax my hair so that it looks short. lol.. Instead of making my hair stand, he made my hair 'sleep'. We laughed at my 'new' hairstyle all along. hahaha.. Funny guy thats what he is. After dinner, on my way home, jam.. For 1 hour. Zzz.. Everyone is crowding KL for F1, sort of exhibition. F1 car bla bla bla. Some more there is KL grand prix. Swt.. Waste my time getting stuck in the crowd. I also saw 'ah kua(s)' with super mini skirt walking around showing their 'boobs' and ass. Gosh.. (No offence and I'm not looking down on anyone okie.. don get me wrong. haha..) Seriously.. Haiz.. Have to get to my assignments now. Happy Easter Day ^^v God Bless..

Sickening World @@

Last night I chatted with one of my angels. Same problem. Haiz.. Whenever she says how she wished I were there makes my heart ache. Why is it so hard for me to be there for those who needed me. She cried again today. haiz.. After about an hour of conversation, I manage to knock some sense into her. Hopefully she will think about it and be alright soon. There wasn't much I can help. Its all depended on herself.

During yesterday's class, teacher discussed with us about the assignment which is due on next monday. It is a 3 in 1 group assignment. However my group, is the only group which has 2. hahaha.. Anway, about a month ago when we were given the assignment, one student was looking for a group to join in. He ask the lecturer which group has only two members. So the lecturer pointed us, my friend and I to him. He agreed to the lecturer that he would join our group and contribute. He doesn't come to class at all. Only during test, which was held last 2 weeks ago, he attended. The lecturer asked him about the assignment progression, he said it was good and he contributed. Until yesterday, when the lecturer ask my friend and I about the assignment, and we told her that we are handicap as we only have 2 person in a group, then only we found out that the guy was lying all this while. We didn't even know that person actually existed. The lecturer appologised to us for she scolded us for giving the excuse of having a handicap. She thought the guy joined our group and contributed. Now the guy is in deeeeeeeeeep trouble.. We were lucky that we found that out last minute. Phew..

This world has many sickening incidents which is human themselves' doing. Jasmine told me about a clip which was posted by JOEP in her blog. The clip is about child abuse. A MTV of "Concrete Angel" by Martini McBride. It is a touching song. The MTV is very touching too. Watching the clip makes me think of the book which I read before, Chicken Soup. I actually sobbed when reading. Zzz.. Early and unplanned marriage caused all these to happened. Youngsters mostly, they only manage to love their partners and not their own new-borned flesh. Saddening.

God, Please Bless These Children..

STRESS!! Holiday!!!

Suppose I've a presentation today, but the class was postponed. Luckily my friend called and tell me. I was stepping out of my room when he called. So today I only have a math class from 2 to 4. new chapter, so freaking confusing at the end. At first it was easy, then become more and more confusing. I almost had myself burst out in front of my friends for he kept asking me how to do the previous questions when I was thinking how to do the confusing equation. Phew.. After class I'm still on fire, I went to have my lunch alone so that I could settle down myself. So stress these few weeks. Next week got 2 presentations, 3 assignments and 1 test to settle. zzzz.. God.. Just now after bathing, I was going to brush my teeth. Guess what, instead of taking the toothpaste, I took my shampoo and nearly squeeze some on my toothbrush. Zzzz..... I want holiday!! Probably if can, teleport me to Miri. hahaha.. Oh ya hor, tomorrow is holiday!! Yeah!! Sleep whole day!!! ^^v

Bye Kei & Who @m I??

Wah.. Looked back at my previous posts, I've not been writting posts for so so long.. Better write what I remember. zz.. After CNY I came to know that my buddy who is a Japenese was leaving for Australia to study. He didn't know what course he would be taking as it was his father's idea to send him there. Swt.. Before he left, I go to Subang right after my class to meet him and play dota from the time I arrive, usually evening before 6 until next morning. lol.. Crazy right? What to do, I wanted to spend whatever time I have with him. I don't know when he is coming back. Some does him. I've been doing this - going Subang and back to Nilai early in the morning, for few weeks until most of my classmates know. lol.. 'casue the next morning I'd be late for class. hahaha.. Dota addict.. During that few weeks I've learnt that he has lots of good friends. On that day he left, 4 of his friends including me, went to KLIA to see him off. Even after he passed the immigration check point, all of us, of course including his parents, chase after him on the path where we could see him. We grab every second we could. On our way home, 4 gays keep saying how much we miss him. All of us still holding our handphone, sms-ing. Poor Kei have to reply all of us. lol.. Even though no one cried, but I could see that they were holding it. I admit I wanted to cry too.. =x haiz.. We were like his parents, wonder if he could take care of himself or not, 'cause he eats a lot.. A lot~~ yet still thin. (like me) lol.. sometimes his friends even mistaken I were him. hahaha.. Haiz.. Soyanara Kei!! Gambateh over there.. What else.. hmm.. oh ya.. assignments still a lot.. zz.. 3 assignments 2 presentation 1 test.. all within 2 weeks. After that prepare for final exams which is on mid of April. zzz.. God.. Wonder how is Jasmine now. haha.. Sometimes I don't know what kind of person am I. Can be very talkative also can be very quiet at the same time. Just like last night, my friend asked me out for dinner. When I saw him with a lot of friends together, I stopped and wondered. I don't know I should join them or not. I feel shy =.= Last time I had dinner with them, I was very very quiet. Zzzz.. Seriously don't understand myself. Hope there is someone who can understand me for me. lol!!! What the crap am I talking about..

Jasmine, Piece of My Heart

I've left her,
I no longer see her face, her laughter,
the way she say her prayer,
everything about her..

I no longer can take care of her,
walk her back to her shelter,

I longer can comfort her, protect her,
feel the great massage of her..

Everything that I used to do with her,
no longer can be done together.
I've left her.

I've went through a great, memorable 4 months with someone who has never in my life, been so close to me in such a short period of time.
Young outside, old inside.. Looks can deceive people. It happened to me, to everyone around her. 1 year elder than me, but look much younger than her actual age. Looks can deceive people. Her looks deceives people.
Going crazy about her idol, JOEP, she sometimes make me think that she is les.. But everything she does for this idol, impresses me.
Being laud outside, quiet inside, she keeps things to herself. She does that most of the times.. Jasmine is whom I'm dedicating this post to.

From someone whom I didn't know until we celebrated our success in our performance, Jasmine became piece of my heart. You might not believe that, 'cause it also took me some time to realise that. From normal friends, we (Jasmine, Keng Leong and I) have became close friends whom we call ourselves 'Zhi Mui' Sounds 'GAY' to Keng Leong and I, but what to do, she is the only girl. We can't say 'xiong di'.... makes her a tomboy. haha.. Well.. at first I wasn't that close to her even though we have became zhi mui. But I still remember when we cycled late at night to Jennifer's house together which is so darn far to celebrate Jennifer's birthday. It was my idea though ><>< Ever since then, I've started to get to know Jasmine more. 3 of us were becoming more like zhi mui(s).

Soon, Keng Leong found himself a girlfriend, didn't even tell both Jasmine and I. Can't blame him, he is in engineering degree, the time with us was not enough for us to be together for too long. But in Keng Leong's heart he still care for us. Since then, only left Jasmine and me.

Liquor brings us together. I remember the first time when 3 of us drink together, we messed things up. I started it 1st by throwing out in Keng Leong's room. lol.. Paiseh.. Later, Jasmine's turn. hahaha.. Ever since that day, liquor has brought us together when we are sad. We started telling each other problems. This practise was then done by only Jasmine and me. Keng Leong was very busy. We drove out to town and have our drinks in a pub. The last time was we bought a cheap liquor and drink in the house. All these happenings were kind of dislike by someone.. haha.. But it didn't affect us. During study week and exam week, I've been with Jasmine everyday, maybe 'cause I got the feeling that I was going to leave her soon so I spent any time I could have with her. I'm glad I did that.

Personally, I feel that the relation between Jasmine and I, Erm.. unique. haha.. Seriously I don't know how to put it in words. I'm easily influenced by her. lol.. Really don't know how to say. hahaha.. During her birthday, all of us gave her a surprise. That time I really squeezed my brain juice to think of one. I did, but something went wrong. Nevermind though.. its over.. As long as she felt the love of everyone and the day come out to be special to her, the rest doesn't matter at all. That night, something surprising and special happened. lol.. She exchanged a "present" with me. So does Keng Leong. That night was not only special to her, but for me too.

Ever since I left Miri, I've been thinking about the day I finally get the chance to meet her. I've been dreaming and dreaming.. and if that really happened, I'd hug her tight.

Things might change in future, but there are things that will never change and be forgotten, the one who is always in my heart, Jasmine.. and the love..^^

Bracer & Sparring Feel

haha.. today Jasmine had an appointment with her dentist at 9am. She had to take off her teeth for bracing. Pity.. she will not be able to eat for months after bracing. Only can take in liquid formed foods like porridge. Aiyo.. I wished I was there for her. haha.. Talking about being there for someone, there is someone who need it more. One of my church angels. She had a bad day. haiz.. She hoped I was there for her and so do I. Haiz.. Hope she will be fine soon. I had a sparring competition yesterday night. I lost but I was very happy. Didn't train for 2 years and went for competition without any training. Cant hope for more in winning. My match was the fourth match. Each match took a minute. The 1 minute made me think back a lot of things. Wonderful things. That match served its purpose. And I'm glad of that. After the match I went to my friend's house to finish up the assignment which is due today but was postponed. At 2.28am, we went out for supper. I met my opponent. He is the assistant of instructor. We chatted. He say it was a great match. The referee told me the same thing too. He said it was a tight match as I just lost 1 point to him. I was happy. He could see that I didn't train for a long time. I was very surprised he could see that out. He also said that my legs were still very powerful, and if I've trained before the match, the result would have been different. haha.. I was very happy. Few of my friends also said so. Go for match without training is wrong. haha.. but my main reason to join the competition is to seek back the old feelings I had for sparring. Of course I hoped I would win, but it really didn't matter. I still love sparring a lot.. Fight for your dreams and life is what I like to do. lol.. bullshit.. =x

Promises Kept..

I was suppose to do web design with Jasmine when I'm back to Miri. I was suppose to promise her that, but knowing that I'm not returning to her, I didn't. But I still wanted to help her. So I bought a web design bible for her. I hand it over to Jerry when he came to KL last Thurday. He handed it over to Jasmine together with the other things. Jasmine was very surprised when she received the book she asked me to buy and the web design bible. It is the least I can do to help her on web design. It seems that I owe her a lot of things. Everday I've been dreaming about going back to Miri, having dinner with all my friends, fetching everyone to town, fetching lazy pigs who are late for class to campus.... All these, can't be done anymore, for my friends in Miri. The most which I wanted to do the most is, being there for Jasmine.

SORRY JASMINE!!

These few days I've been in fear when my phone rings. I was afraid that it is a call or a sms from Jasmine. I was afraid of her knowing the truth already. The day came at last, she sms-ed me in the morning, asking is it true that I'm not going back to Miri already. I knew that rumours have been around ever since the degree class started which is a week ago. I couldn't keep it away from her anymore. So I just had to tell her everything already. I told her that I'd talk to her at night. Soon, the letters I wrote for some of my friends before I left Miri were given out to each of them during the dinner by Joseph. At 8.57pm, Jasmine sms-ed me, telling me that she had received the letter. It is so hard breaking..till now.. it still.. She actually waited for me to come back. It was very hard for her to receive the letter. It was a hard night. I called her to talk to her, and in the meantime, I want to listen to the voice that I can only hear from the phone for as long as it takes. She kinda blame me why have I kept it from her. haiz.. The closer the person is to me, the harder for me to tell.. What more when it comes to Jasmine. She actually teared when reading the letters, it makes my heart ache.. Haiz.. I'm sorry Jasmine.. There were so many things that she wanted to tell me when I'm back to Miri, many things to share with me, and wanted to know how much have I changed, so do I. Now, all these can only be done through wires. But she want to tell me in person, face to face.. It makes my heart so ache!!! I'm SORRY JASMINE!! I LOVE YOU! MISS YOU SO MUCH!!