SORRY JASMINE!!

These few days I've been in fear when my phone rings. I was afraid that it is a call or a sms from Jasmine. I was afraid of her knowing the truth already. The day came at last, she sms-ed me in the morning, asking is it true that I'm not going back to Miri already. I knew that rumours have been around ever since the degree class started which is a week ago. I couldn't keep it away from her anymore. So I just had to tell her everything already. I told her that I'd talk to her at night. Soon, the letters I wrote for some of my friends before I left Miri were given out to each of them during the dinner by Joseph. At 8.57pm, Jasmine sms-ed me, telling me that she had received the letter. It is so hard breaking..till now.. it still.. She actually waited for me to come back. It was very hard for her to receive the letter. It was a hard night. I called her to talk to her, and in the meantime, I want to listen to the voice that I can only hear from the phone for as long as it takes. She kinda blame me why have I kept it from her. haiz.. The closer the person is to me, the harder for me to tell.. What more when it comes to Jasmine. She actually teared when reading the letters, it makes my heart ache.. Haiz.. I'm sorry Jasmine.. There were so many things that she wanted to tell me when I'm back to Miri, many things to share with me, and wanted to know how much have I changed, so do I. Now, all these can only be done through wires. But she want to tell me in person, face to face.. It makes my heart so ache!!! I'm SORRY JASMINE!! I LOVE YOU! MISS YOU SO MUCH!!